i'm not the same nat that could handle things just so easily
i thought i was
but i just can't let go
somehow
i just felt that we were saying crude things to each other just to do the RIGHT thing
but the RIGHT thing, only makes my heart bleed more
the way u treat me now
it's obvious you're trying
but yeah
ijustcan'thelpit
deepdowninside
myheartsank

realised tt i haven't blogged since i got my laptop back!

after one week, i realised tt i can actually handle certain issues quite maturely..lol..*wadeva the spelling is*
i seem to be able to put that thing down..so easily?
i just don't seem to feel anithin that strongly
no hatred at all
even I..don't understand myself =X
probably cos i know things won't work out from the start
so i'm mentally prepared already?
if that is the case
i must say...i nvr thought that i'd be so mentally strong in my whole entire life

or isit juz something else in me
that i jus dunno of
can't seem to find
have never experienced
and thus don't understand?

i passed my driving!
whoots! 8pts!
haha..equaled jasons' score..

b4 tt in the waiting area so damn nervous tryin' to rethink back how 2 do parking..
haha..until wx reminded me tt dere's still a warm up b4 tt..haha
den i relaxed a lil..
my gosh..i was more nervous for this than any other exam.

thnks to 3 ppl tt msged me b4 the start..
haha...thnks for ur moral support!
i was super in need of some..juz didn't wana wake anione up tt early in da morning..
oks...it wasn't v.early by then..10plus le

heng i gt the test route that like..OMG almost no car at all..
so everything went smoothly =)
happies..

but the suckiest thing is tt i still havent got the license
cos stupid BBDC counter on top level 2 de...
they suck man...their service..dunno how ppl teach dem de..
the below BBDC ppl R like ten thousand times more friendly.
totally two worlds apart..
on top feels like some NTU SAO...LOL
lazy, incompetent workers..
close shop so early end up i cldn't make it in time for a Q number...=(

i'll go back tml n get my license!

dun tink
juz do?
even if i think it's wrong?
even if i know i may end up getting hurt?
even if i know i'll end up hurting others?

i'm the one that's clinging on to some hope
well, the hope is coming...
but will this hope last?

never felt that holding hands was a big deal
always wondered y ppl c it as a sense of security
or a sense of trusting your life to the other person

now i feel it
now i understand
how it's like to trust someone wholeheartedly
the desire to hold one's hand
not for security, not for trust
but just to hold it
cos u treasure it

shld i learn 2 plAy the cello?
i realli like the sound of it
=)
yes more than the piano
haha

but costs, time etc etc

dunno

sensitive 2 music

v.xian mu my bro,
can plAy piano etc etc
and no matter how i do it..i juz can't..zZz
where has my artistic genes gone to?

self reflection time

been thinking again
am i realli ready for a r/s?
feels so haha..half hearted?
i always tend 2 take things and of cos ppl for granted
esp those that i know love me
tryin' 2 change now
but den. somehow i dunno. i can't
tt sickening face of mine..lol
juz dosen't smile when i'm supposed 2
bLeah. i tink i'm too used 2 bottling up feelings
too much of it
such tt i don't express certain stuff on my face, which makes me seem DAO/unfriendly

so wad's gd abt me?
ok, at least i go all out 2 help ppl
haha..i'm nice...

i need 2 learn 2 express things in words too
HOW HOW HOW

but still,
i need 2 shoulder to lie on
it's different frm telling friends things and repeating things 2 other friends again so that u feel better

i need some pillar of support!

another randomness

i FOUND SO SO MANI SONGS...
realised tt i have so mani songs..juz tt they weren't in my itunes DUNNO Y..
lol..yes..it's gd 2 have some old songs backk =))

Countdowns

1 more day for my friend 2 b back frm his NS dunno wad camp..lol

2 more days for my LAST LAB

dunno 8 or 9 days to New Beginnings...
haha

hmm..wad else is dere 2 countdown to?

11 days to my TP test
=X

13 days to my last time in hall

i juz ate a very big hershey's kisses
SINFUL times 10
juz hope tml no sore throat ok.

sucks..2dae is a sensitive day
happy at the slightest thing
emo at the slightest thing too

sometimes i realli wonder izit me
or izit i'm too sensitive
or izit jux not the right timing to say happy stuffs when someone is nt v.happy?
haha..i shall convince myself tt it's the third k...

moving out of hall by end of nxt wk
hmmm...mixed of emotions..
reluctant but yet eager
c0s' i dun realli like my current hall
i'm juz thankful tt i have a shelter over my head
and reluctant c0s' no more late nights at 16
haha..no more mj, when i juz bought my new tiles .zZz.
but dese few days
i do miss home..haha
mayb c0s' no sense of belonging in 7...
need some companyyyyy!!!

i'm sucha stalker...
lol..on fb
hahahhaha..i tink i found the gf

this's nt realli the right time 2 do such stuff..
bleah
nat.
get over it.

haii
shld i go for driving tml?
a bit lAzy 2 go...
but test date approaching..haha
though i gt book one whole list of driving time next frm frm mon to fri
hmm..i guess shld b ok la..hor
if i dun go driving tml..lol
super sian n lAzy 2 go bbdc
so inconvenient...
oks! i'm nt goin for driving tml..cancel!

不知不觉的
天天想着你
要知道你在想什么，做什么。
想找机会和你相处

可是我知道
我没机会的
因为迟了一步
不
是很多步

第一次觉得
介入别人的感情
不会是一件坏事
而是一种缘分

我们的相遇
我们的巧合
也是一种缘分

这个缘分
能持续多久？

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