i'm so bored
so bored
so so bored
ahhhhhhhh

where's tt motivation to study???

LOST!

i shld stop thinking about wadeva i'm thinkin about
stop day dreaminggg!!!
and night dreaminggg!!!

love my new specs!
wahaha..ya..i tink gt the discipline mistress look..

HOTT! lol



my heart sank
when it was time to go
i wanted to stay on
wanted your company
but there was no reason for me to do so

i'm soft hearted la...

nice vidd....i cried can!
lol...so i'm nt an insensitive pig like someone says...

this vid..muz watch to the end de...den will know the whole story...it's nice!!

let's just go
where ever fate leads me to

i don't know what will b installed for me
but i've faced the impossible
forgiven the non-deserving

the only challenge is to stop being to0 hard on myself

i'm still too hard on myself..

suddenly i felt that
it was just nothing

i felt empty
but not jealous

felt a lil lost
but not frustrated

so i think
it's nothing

jia y0u
you can do it
whatever it takes
whatever happens

i'll b there

i'll transfer all my cruel-ness, all my courage, all my strength
just for you

pls don't let me down...

jiay0u,
tomorrow will be a better day,
cos' i'll b around...

我最对不起的人应该是你...因为还没跟你说声 对不起

always, when i think about the past, i keep remembering one thing that i forgot to do 2 years ago...

it's a bad habit...i forgot to say i'm sorry...
sorry for how i just left you in the lurch, sorry for how i loved you by throwing you away...

probably it's retribution, the things that i've been facing for these past 2 years... people leaving me, throwing me away, toying with my feelings etc...

probably i was just too naive, thinking that by leaving you, maybe you'll wake up...and suddenly become a more mature person that can handle setbacks strongly and not be to0 emo...

well, tt was my misjudgement...a leopard can't change it's spots...it's just in you to emo, and just not in me to emo...i'd rather get on with life with the saying, 明天会更好..that makes me stronger, makes me feel better

i know i was cruel. i felt bad too. but i had to? if nt things would still be hanging up there, somewhere...

yeahh...i'm sorry, sorry for being so cruel to you...

probably being secretly in love with someone is much better than openly loviing someone that dosen't love u...

yeahh..it's 10 thousand times much better...

things shld juz remain status quo yea?


aniwae...i think i'm feeling better these few days...as in like a changed person...at peace with myself eventhough i still like someone...lol..this sounds unfeeling ya?

usually i'll b tormenting myself, thinkin here and there, can't concentrate on this n that...but now..it's different..nt so EMO or wadsoeva..

i was juz tellin my friend, how i am such a hopeless case c0s' i've been having small crushes on people like 10plus yrs older than me..
teachers, lecturers etc...since sec sch...tt's so in me...i dunn0 y...they juz got the more mature feeling lol..

but those crushes....small issue ya..they'll juz remain as crushes ONLY

and i still wan to get married early...lol...so it's ok to like older men...

i think i'm a sagi-scorpio hybrid! lol

Sagittarius Strength Keywords:
- Independence


Sagittarius Weakness Keywords:
- Unemotional
*I LIKE!* lol

Sagittarius and Independence:
Independence is Sagittarius' principle, they crave adventure and excitement and welcome change with open arms. Sagittarius is the sign of the philosopher and the explorer, they will go as far as road will go and explore every corner thoroughly in their ever eternal search for wisdom. Freedom is so important to Sagittarius that they will actually make decisions based on the amount of freedom that is given by the choice they have made, as a result, sometimes a good opportunity is turned down because of it's high commitment need, but this is their choice so it is a good choice for them.

Sagittarius and Friendship:
Sagittarius make excellent friends because of their encouraging, positive nature and their kind heart that will do anything to make sure the friend is happy. They do not expect favors in return, their kindness is selfless. They do not interfere with other people's plans and they are never possessive or jealous. They treat others the way they want to be treated and life life based on a 'live and let live' policy, this makes them so agreeable. Sagittarius are excellent conversationalists with a good sense of humor, sometimes their humor is the raw truth, but these people speak their mind and don't hold anything back. * like EVERYTIME! lol* What they say is what they mean, Sagittarius do not like mind games, it holds them back trying to figure out what is meant, they like straightforwardness and expect it in return. Sagittarius are known for saying the 'painful truth', but on the other hand, people know that they can trust what they say because they always say what is real. A Sagittarius never hides anything. Sagittarius are very likeable people. The only people that might not get along with them are people that live by a daily agenda * i live by an agenda lehh..=X* with a highly structured, organized life. They are likely to always be running late and miss a date, but this is only because they are so forward thinking that they forget about the present. Tolerance is required, Sagittarius does not do these things on purpose, this is just who they are. If you understand this and accept this, having a Sagittarius in your life will make the sun shine a lot brighter.

Sagittarius and Business:
Sagittarius are born entertainers and conversationalists. They have no shortage of ideas due to their adventurous lifestyle and exciting life experiences. They make excellent storyteller, comedians, writers, philosophers and actors to name a few, basically Sagittarius are suited to anything as long as it does not tie them down with too much commitment. They like to make the world a better place and a career that will do that is well suited for Sagittarius, they do not however like the fine details and mundane day to day routine this bores them so they tend to procrastinate and let someone else deal with the details. They perform very well in business matters but they are at their best when it is crunch time. If now is the time for all or nothing, and there is a great deal at stake, they can get anything done. Crisis brings out the best in Sagittarius, they perform their best under pressure.

Sagittarius and Temperament:
Sagittarius are not emotional moody people, in fact they can be downright emotionally detached but they do get irritable when they are bored. haha..ya..i emo when i'm BOREDDD.. Sagittarius is optimistic and positive, even deep inside because they believe that no matter what has happened, something good is always around the corner and the sun will always shine again.

Sagittarius Deep Inside:
Sagittarius is a well adjusted person with no emotional problems holding them back. They just want to explore the world and not fret about emotions and feelings. Others may be hurt by their lack of commitment but they don't care, * i think so...like wt i always do to my parents...give dem the i don't care feel...* that's not why they are on this planet, they are here to gain wisdom, learn and explore. Sagittarius has problems finishing some projects they started if it takes too long, they want immediate results and will move on to the next project if it takes too long. This is not because of laziness, Sagittarius are far from lazy but this motivation to move on is due to their hatred of boredom. Boredom is their fear and instead of facing it, they will up and leave in search of something more stimulating. Sagittarius are not emotional people but they are easily hurt by a careless selfish action, their will be blue but turn it around pretty quickly with their naturally sunny disposition. They don't dwell on hurt because it is a waste of their energy.

Sagittarius in a Nutshell:
Sagittarius seem to be guided by luck, good things happen to Sagittarius and this is usually because of their optimistic outlook and positive disposition which attracts good fortune. Despite hardships, Sagittarius is always optimistic that good things will happen tomorrow and the future carries good luck. Sagittarius have a vibrant, expansive personality that is free like a bird, Sagittarius cannot be contained. They are full of curiosity and they always look forward to the future, never dwelling on the past. Sagittarius are detached from emotions because emotions hold a person back, they do not like to talk about their feelings, they simply experience them and move on. Sagittarius can be reckless and irresponsible because they will jump at a suggestion of something new before they weigh the advantages and disadvantages.

Scorpio Strength Keywords:
- Loyal
- Passionate
- Resourceful
- Observant
- Dynamic

Scorpio Weakness Keywords:
- Jealous
- Obsessive
- Suspicious- Manipulative
- Unyielding

Scorpio and Independence:
Scorpios are fiercely independent. They are able to accomplish anything they put their mind to and they won't give up. They are perfectly suited to being on their own. They are not social butterflies like some other zodiac signs and some actually prefer to live on their own that way there is never any issue of who controls what at home, they like to be in control.

Scorpio and Friendship:
Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.

Scorpio and Business:
Scorpios make excellent doctors, surgeons, scientists and leaders, they are perfectly suited to any form of business that makes a difference in the world, greatly impacts people and society and a most importantly, Scorpio has to be in a power position, this is why these careers are suited to the Scorpio, they all demand one person in supreme control giving orders and leading a unit of people/practices. In business, Scorpios tend to easily gather wealth, they make very wise business decisions and they are very conservative about spending their money. Scorpios are known for making money and hiding it, they will not announce it due to to fear that others will take the same route and becoming a possible competitor, or worse try to use the Scorpio to their advantage to use them for their money.

Scorpio and Temperament:
Scorpios are extremely ambitious, persistent and determined which is shown through a power hungry, controlling attitude. Not in a stubborn sense however, because a Scorpio will work for what they want and control will justified reasons. This is obvious to any onlooker. A Scorpio never gives up, they are so determined to reach their goal. The key to this success is their flexibility. They are able to re-survey a situation and take a different approach if necessary. This makes them very adaptable and versatile. Scorpios are fierce competitors, combined with their powers of observation and their excellent memory, they will recall facts and when necessary, bring them to the table at the time of need. They will win justly, with proper facts and arguments to support their thoughts and opinions. Scorpios are excellent at restoring order to a chaotic situation and they are just as capable of manipulating for their own greed and benefit. The un-evolved Scorpio is a very dangerous person because they use their powers to benefit only them and step on other people in order to satisfy their own greed.

Scorpio Deep Inside:
Scorpio is the most misunderstood of all astrology signs. They are all about intensity and contradictions. They like to be aware of a situation and always know what's going on, figuring this out with their probing mind, on the other hand, they are interested in the occult, the paranormal, conspiracy theories and other types of similar unknown mysteries. They are very capable of hiding their true feelings and motivations, they often have ulterior motives or a hidden agenda. Scorpios are all about control, they need to be in control at all times. To be out of control is very threatening, even dangerous to the Scorpio's psyche, when they control, they feel safe.
Scorpios are very emotional, their emotions are intensified, both good emotions and bad. Negative emotions of jealousy and resentment are hallmarks of this turbulent astrology sign. On the other side, Scorpios are well known for their forceful and powerful drive to succeed and their amazing dedication. Scorpios are constantly trying to understand their emotions through finding a deeper purpose in life. Scorpios are very intuitive, but not as in a psychic sense, more as intuitive into the human mind, they have a great understanding of the mystery and the power of the human mind.
Scorpios have a fear of failure which they keep hidden extremely well, should their confrontation not be successful, or their career fail, they will simply use their adaptive skill to quickly move and and leave the bad experience behind. Do not ever expect them to fess up or share their tale with anyone however because this shows signs of weakness and Scorpio always wins, they are always the self-proclaimed best! One of the reasons they seem like they always accomplish their goals is because they set tangible short-term goals that they know they can accomplish, they know what they are capable of and this is what they go for.
Scorpios are very weary about trusting anyone, a person needs to gain their trust and this gets built up over time and once all the 'trust tests' have been passed, Scorpio loves deeply and intensely. Underneath the cool exterior, energies and emotions are constantly flowing but the Scorpio deals with this be channeling this into useful activities, hobbies, relationships or a career. This is never apparent to the outside observer but knowing this fact explains why Scorpios are so passionate about whatever it is that they are undertaking. Scorpios have powerful instincts and they trust their own gut feeling which is another reason why a Scorpio seldom fails.
The ongoing lesson in life for those born under the Scorpio zodiac signs, is to channel their powerful energy into positive goals and not succumbing to the darker forces in life such as manipulation and greed, they will then have great success in their life and have a clean, happy conscience and a circle of friends they can trust and hold dear to them.

Scorpio in a Nutshell:
Scorpio is the astrology sign of extremes and intensity. Scorpios are very deep, intense people, there is always more then meets the eye. They present a cool, detached and unemotional air to the world yet lying underneath is tremendous power, extreme strength, intense passion and a strong will and a persistent drive. Scorpios have a very penetrative mind, do not be surprised if they ask questions, they are trying to delve deeper and figure things out and survey the situation. They always want to know why, where and any other possible detail they can possibly know. Scorpio's are very weary of the games that other people try to play and they are very aware of it. Scorpios tend to dominate and control anyone that lets them, or anyone that they find weak. The person that a Scorpio respects and holds close to them is treated with amazing kindness, loyalty and generosity. On the outside, a Scorpio has great secretiveness and mystery. This magnetically draws people to them. They are known to be controlling and too ambitious but only because they need control for this makes them feel safe.

when you overwhelm yourself with hate/love/frustration/infatuation etc,
take in a deep breath,
breathe out,
and then tell yourself, that's hate/love/frustration/infatuation etc,
tt's when you're ready to let go

decide.
if you want to be the righteous person amongst your friends,
or the baddie amongst foes
tt's how u let go

when you open up your heart,
and learn to embrace everything,
be it good or bad,
that's when you have really learnt to let go

when you don't feel any of those emotions,
when happiness surmounts you,
when you think back and feel that it's a memory,
when you know that she's just a passing by shower,
that's when you have LET GO

hope you'll be strong and know that it's time to let go
it's not just about cutting all connections,
it's about learning, embracing, forgiving and being at peace with yourself
it's not about your star sign and what it says about you,
it's about who you are and who you want to be
it's within your control

so...
jiayou
=)

i still love doin other stuffz than studyin..like of course!
esp when there's test/exams man..
i'll start to meddle with other other stuffz..lol


lAyout 1..
felt that it was a lil' empty...


lAyout 2...

a bit nicer..but still feels sumthink nt right...



PERFECT!




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